Its weird what I have missed.

There is no picture to this blog, because the things I miss aren't the things we have pictures of. I wish we did. I remember saying, "honey, we need to take a picture of this so that I have it". Then, it is time for him to put on his gear and leave. Time flies, and you don't always have to be having fun for that to happen.

The thing that I miss the very, very most is the way he looks at me. If we are watching a movie, and I am laying with my head is his lap, he looks at me. He looks at me in the most loving, caring way. It doesn't matter if I have make up on. Selma Hayek could be on the TV. He just looks at me with his sweet, caring eyes. That, I miss alot.

I miss falling asleep while watching movies, just content to be near him. I miss the way he mindlessly rubs my feet, even though he has been the one having the long, hard day. I even miss the way that he squishes me when we are falling asleep. I miss the way that he cares about me, and for me. I guess I have to finally learn to do that myself.

I have been doing pretty good over the last couple of weeks; been pretty strong. I am proud of myself for that. I really thought I was going to be a basket case for the entire year. It is nice to prove myself wrong from time to time. But today, I was eating Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream, and that sent me to thinking about him, and laying on his lap, watching TV, and him looking at me. He loves Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream. I thought maybe I could reverse my sadness by eating Dill Pickles. :) Somehow, I don't think that will work.